did i say too much?

i'm not sure if this will make any impact on whether i get hired or not for the job i interviewed for today. i DID mention people tend to discriminate against me and not let me do certain things because they assume that i'm too handicapped or disabled to. he just shook his head and said, "nah." so i hope he doesn't take that into consideration. he said it as if he wasn't gonna use it against me. i think and hope he considered looking on my resume that i have worked other jobs- so my disability didn't affect my ability to work. that's the only time i can remember questioning if he might hire me during the interview. my grandma would be disappointed with amanda seeing how she hasn't helped me with shit and tried to nudge me to go BACK to the place my grandma used to swear UP and DOWN that amanda would never have me go to because she'd "have YOU {ME} IN NEW YORK!". amanda enjoys lying to her elders.. kinda makes a person question her character- ESPECIALLY an elder who's older than her and truly entrusted in her to help get me to new york. oh well. not my problem. just further proof that no one gives a shit about me- which is also why zen tries to help me as little as possible. i told him a long time ago that i wanted to get my driver's license again and my previous case manager told me to ask him to help me, then i ended up taking behind-the-wheel lessons (WHICH WAS PAID OUTTA-POCKET) and the trainer told me i was capable of taking the behind-the-wheel test, i just needed someone to purchase me a vehicle- brian put the brakes on that with the excuse he couldn't purchase an unlicensed driver a vehicle. then zen and i think my care coordinator took advantage of that and had people give me a cognitive test to determine whether i can drive and i failed it. people are so damn selfish, they don't consider everything i've been through in order to get driving again and do ANYTHING at all- THEY WON'T BE SATISFIED UNTIL I'M A DAMN VEGETABLE unable to do anything- I'VE GAVE EVERYTHING TO JAY WHEN I'M GONE. YOU ALL CAN GO FUCK YOURSELVES- YOU GOT THIS!